Chinese New Year Season is HERE~

Chinese New Year is here in February. For me and my family, Chinese New Year is not as festive as last few years. But this Chinese New Year marks as a new start of a blessing Goat Year for 2015. I only have a simple wish to my family and friends is to be healthy, live healthy and be happy. Wish all my friends an early Happy Chinese New Year~

 

2014 has past and welcome 2015 which a new start~

2014 was not a pleasant year for me, my family and to others. There are things that cannot be forgotten by passing to a new year but what most of us hope that bad luck does not continue to 2015. The incident that happen in 2014 will always be in our heart to tell us to care our family and friends. i will welcome 2015 with my warm heart and continue to care and live to my fullest. Happy New Year 2015.

lonely, tired, sad...

Been quite some time, that i forgotten that i had a blog where i use to write or express my feeling trough this blog. Few years have past that i start to write in my blog to releasing my loneliness in here. This year has been a rough year for me. My father pass away on June 6 which was too sudden for me and my mom. Until now i accept the reality that my father is no longer with me but just doesn't feel right because i always remember my father being in the house and never leave. Sometime i do not know how to take care of my mother and myself, i still a student with no income. I kinda feel like useless can't do anything, sometime argue with my mother and i just can't control my anger and vent it out on my mother. I really hate myself for being so useless.

When i cry, i don't dare to cry in front of my mom. I always hide somewhere in the house and cry out loud but sometime i just want my bestfriend to hear me out or stay by my side to listen to what i want to say. For my friend that doesn't even call or message me to ask 'how are you?' and i wonder do i have any friend. I really feel so tired and have a friend to speak to but it seem so hard to have that wish come true.