Chinese New Year Season is HERE~

Chinese New Year is here in February. For me and my family, Chinese New Year is not as festive as last few years. But this Chinese New Year marks as a new start of a blessing Goat Year for 2015. I only have a simple wish to my family and friends is to be healthy, live healthy and be happy. Wish all my friends an early Happy Chinese New Year~

 

2014 has past and welcome 2015 which a new start~

2014 was not a pleasant year for me, my family and to others. There are things that cannot be forgotten by passing to a new year but what most of us hope that bad luck does not continue to 2015. The incident that happen in 2014 will always be in our heart to tell us to care our family and friends. i will welcome 2015 with my warm heart and continue to care and live to my fullest. Happy New Year 2015.

lonely, tired, sad...

Been quite some time, that i forgotten that i had a blog where i use to write or express my feeling trough this blog. Few years have past that i start to write in my blog to releasing my loneliness in here. This year has been a rough year for me. My father pass away on June 6 which was too sudden for me and my mom. Until now i accept the reality that my father is no longer with me but just doesn't feel right because i always remember my father being in the house and never leave. Sometime i do not know how to take care of my mother and myself, i still a student with no income. I kinda feel like useless can't do anything, sometime argue with my mother and i just can't control my anger and vent it out on my mother. I really hate myself for being so useless.

When i cry, i don't dare to cry in front of my mom. I always hide somewhere in the house and cry out loud but sometime i just want my bestfriend to hear me out or stay by my side to listen to what i want to say. For my friend that doesn't even call or message me to ask 'how are you?' and i wonder do i have any friend. I really feel so tired and have a friend to speak to but it seem so hard to have that wish come true.

My Birthday is Getting Near~~Hehe

All i hope for my birthday is just a simple celebration with my friends and family....And some wishes from my friends and that will give me a satisfying Birthday~~

Mother's Day

Although at Mother's day should be a happy event for everyone.....but for me is quite horrible day
This morning i wish my mother "Happy Mother's day" and after that at afternoon we had an argue....
that argument is so damn stupid.....i don't understand what my mom is trying to tell me then i try to explain to her how to talk correctly about it.....and it became an argue....STUPID!!!
The worst mother's day ever....!!!!!

Really, am i so useless??!

Am i so useless...Everybody lost hope or faith in me.....i am no match to my relative or my sister that have outstanding academy....My existence has slowly fading in this family....issit cuz i'm useless....

The Past....

I don't remember thing from kindergarden....All those memories so blur....I dind't remember the love from my parents....and this make me feel uneasy.....
Got 1 incident that happen when i'm only 5 or 6 years old.....i knock my head when i was playing with other kids......And i feel that incident that happen at that time was the cause of my memories faded or disappear....

EVERYTHING NEEDs MONEY!!!!

When the SPM result is out is time for us to decide which college to get in.......To study in a college also need large amount of money..... In university needs even larger amount of money..... To those that family financial is not very good can get loan from the university or government.......AND don't go think half study half working, if like that won't help much.
So i really hope my friends from form4 and friends that having SPM this years need to study hard, to let your family know that you study hard and wanted to go college or university after you finish SPM....Then your family will surely support you in the school fee....

Monday is going to be the STPM result.....i really wish those my freind that is going take that result....the best of all.....Most of the time people who took SPTM is going to study at university....So is quite difficult if the result is bad.....And as for SPM result is going to be March 10 or until 15....Donno the accurate date....but also is quite near.....HOPE ALL WILL BE IN GOOD RESULT!!!!

Lonely New Years Celebration

When New Years come it should be a happy time.....But this years for me is a Lonely new years celebration
My grandmother is going to Singapore to celebrate new years.........and as for my father is going to Thailand AGAIN with his friends..... And me and my mother will be alone in this house without going other relative house to celebrate or other relative won't come to our house to celebrate new years........ This is the first time i spent my New Years alone with my mother.... :(

SPM!!!!!!

Really hope my BM can pass.....^^ 2morrow is english test.....must A+^^
Thursday is my sejarah test....all my friends say just tutup mata on sejarah......but i wan pass it.....
Hope SPM candidate do your best in your exam....Fighting^^

SHINee - Hello

Very misfortunate day for me.......T.T

Today got seminar at my tuisyen, and my friend is truly late for the seminar....... And my cellphone has run out of the time limit so i cannot call my friend........ i wait her at down stair for 45 minute, she still haven't come yet........after that i go to my neigbouring friend house and borrow her cellphone to sms her.......she reply "OMG!!!! I didn't notice today got seminar, now i at outside. SORRY, today seminar i won't go."
When i see this i get angry, if u very late but u still come is ok for me. BUT when u late and no come to the seminar, also no phone call from u...........i really piss off....i hate ppl like that...

Starting now very busy on studying....wanted to form a study group^^

Not good in my Additional Mathematic, Prinsip Akaun, Chemistry and i forgot d.......XD
So i hope form a study group that can help all of my friends in school^^

SPM is near!!!! OMG!!! All i need to do is read, read and read......